The chain of your lies
Kept me in a dream
Until I found a crack in the wall
And finally woke up.
On a dark rainy day,
I let out a silent scream,
Declaring once and for all
That we were done.
“You don’t get to decide what I do or how I feel!” I yelled.
“You don’t have the right!”
And the first thing I did without you
Was learn how to fight.
It took time for me to regain my strength
Haunted by what I still remembered
But just as I started to fall apart,
I said a prayer and put myself back together.
The second thing I did without you was learn how to speak.
With you, my voice was something beyond recognition.
No word off my tongue sounded like my own
So I sang His praises while going through the transition
I sang of how fortunate I was to fall
How He shattered the darkness and brought me back to life
In my awakening I found my confidence
But when I thought I was safe, I got stabbed by your knife
Even though I kept my body safe from harm,
I could still see scars in my heart and in my mind
So I sought help from a friend who was strong like an Amazon
Not realizing all the things I would find
Beyond the apocalypse, there was a brave new world
Wide and open, glistening and effulgent
I used to think that living without you
Would be the hardest thing
But now I found out something new
I’ve finally learned to live.